This is What i am

A little more than fourteen months ago, I started this blog as an opportunity to chronicle my trip to India.  As I returned back to my abnormal life, though, I found it important to begin reflecting on the things I think about, what I regret or am afraid of, and what matters most to me.  So I've recently began to think about the life of this and what I want it to be, and I realize I want to continue sharing my experiences, my thoughts, and my life.  There are no themes or topics other than what I find meaningful in the moment.  And so, "The Wacky Tales of a Mushroom Gone Wild" doesn't really seem to fit with much of anything I think or feel, write about, or want to define me or this blog that's become a lot more than just a way to share the journey to my roots all those many months ago.

As I continuously looked for a reinvention, I kept returning to the same questions: "What do I want to say?  And who is it that I really am?"  It reminded me that for almost all of my life, my personal mantra has always been two small little words that merely read: i am.

Why is that?  Because any time I find myself anxious or unsure, I can close my eyes and think "it doesn't matter.  It only matters that I am."  I am what, you ask?  Well, the answer always depends. 

I was a child, a teenager, and now I am a woman.

I am a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a cousin.

I am a business woman, a homeowner.

I am a thinker, a writer, an artist.

I am a friend, a family member, a role model.

I am a girlfriend, a partner.

I am myself...

And as long as I can always close my eyes and know whatever "i am" is true, then I will always have something to say.  So today, I have landed on a new blog name - This is What i am. 

I hope you like this, and me, for what it is, and what I always am.