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Question #9: To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I think this is a loaded question. No one really has much control over their lives because shit happens and you didn't ever think, or dream, or wish it would. And that shit that happens changes your life.
So I can control the decisions I make and the way I react to stuff around me. I can control the way I spend money, communicate with people, and the energy I use to get through the day. But I can't control most of what happens to me.
And I don't want to.
I'm not a religious woman. I don't believe in someone who died for my sins, or in multiple deities. I don't think I'm a chosen one or that I am descended from Ishmael. But I do believe there is something out there that is bigger than me. There is some sort of natural order that sets things in motion, and yeah, I have the power to make decisions for myself; the universe, however, has its own plans and all I can do is react.
So how do I pin down the degrees to which I've controlled my life? I have no idea. All I know is I get up and I do the best I can do in the moment. Sometimes my best means reacting to all the things I can't control. And that's ok.
Question #9: To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I think this is a loaded question. No one really has much control over their lives because shit happens and you didn't ever think, or dream, or wish it would. And that shit that happens changes your life.
So I can control the decisions I make and the way I react to stuff around me. I can control the way I spend money, communicate with people, and the energy I use to get through the day. But I can't control most of what happens to me.
And I don't want to.
I'm not a religious woman. I don't believe in someone who died for my sins, or in multiple deities. I don't think I'm a chosen one or that I am descended from Ishmael. But I do believe there is something out there that is bigger than me. There is some sort of natural order that sets things in motion, and yeah, I have the power to make decisions for myself; the universe, however, has its own plans and all I can do is react.
So how do I pin down the degrees to which I've controlled my life? I have no idea. All I know is I get up and I do the best I can do in the moment. Sometimes my best means reacting to all the things I can't control. And that's ok.
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